Questions are no problem, I have no trouble answering you. I'm not sure if you have read my other posts?? I did have some bleeding that got out of control. My own doctor will NOT help me. (= going against the cancer centre)I also asked him to refer me to a surgeon as there is a polyp in the rectum that NOONE mentioned to me. I found out by accident, and I had trouble. He said it would do no good to refer me for the same reasons, that they would not go against the cancer centre. So, he sent me to a general surgeon. When e got there, he already had my cancer docs in hand. He refused to examine me, and told me:"Go to get some preparation H, there is NOTHING I WILL do here!" For real, my husband was with me!! Then it suddenly hit home!! We are on our own, no doctors willing to help me, as I was not taking the "Traditional" treatments. OMG! I felt this still would be ok.... DOH! Then I started to bleed as I had done many times before. BUT it got bad, really bad.... I am now into a heamoragh and not knowing what to do. I was in denial until I couldn't stand anymore and was so dizzy and winded from losing so much blood. We decided to go to local emergency room. That's when it got MORE weird!! This is taking place: October 1st to now @ the hospital October 14th..... Oct 1st RBC = 145, oct 14th RBC 105, Oct 17th RBC 94. I did not get a transfussion that day. What I did get is 2 doctors not understanding WHY I was not getting treatment, calling ORIGINAL cancer centre behind our backs and original gyne too!! I was mad. 1st doc says I needed to have IV fluids and a blood transfussion. The gyne that came in after said to me, that if she could not find the bleed inside me, there wasn't much they could do. WELL..... they could pack me, stuff me full of cloths/gauze? then I would have to have this changed often and be on continual antibiotics. The two doctors continualy pressured us, trying to make us go to the cancer centre. Saying radiation is the only CURE!!! I was getting madder and madder. The left room again, I got up and got dressed and told hubby we need to go home try to figure something else out. Then the Gyne doc came back in, said she spoke with Gyne Oncoligist @ cancer centre, he said that if they could see the bleed they could use this chemical to cauterize it. So sure enough upon exam, she could see where the bleed was coming from. The stuff she had worked to stop the bleed. They never gave me a transfusion. I went on to tell her, we did not refuse treatment lightly, NOONE @ the cancer centre EVER told us what she did that day, in regards to what would happen to me if I did NOT take treatment. She summed it up: She said you'll be @ home and basicaly have a bleed that you cannot recover from, OR the tumour would grow so big it would choke the ureters and thus cause a backflow of urine to drown the kidneys, and thus kill me via renal failure. WOW! I was in their world again. You know the one!!! We had a long talk, I told her I had NOONE to followup with, noone would test OR touch me as long as I was NOT getting "Treatments", she felt bad and slipped me her # told me to call her. She is basicaly treating me as a pallative case, in her words!! BUT BUT, when she did a physical exam on me, she said HEY! I said What>>?? she says, this doesn't look like it should. I said what do you mean? She says, it looks alomost like a normal cervix, no necrosis as I'd had in July/August. I only started on the DCA on October 2nd this year. So I said to her, then WHAT I AM DOING must be working then? No comment from her. I go to see her on Mon Nov 3rd.I think the only reason she said she'd see me, is she was shocked!

So, that's kinda the long n short of it all.... I am scared. I am shocked that NOONE will treat me. Medicor only does blood work on me. I can get an imaging test done in December sometime. I never thought that these would be MY CHOICES. So Tommy, I clearly understand your choices for you and your wife. It's a hard "Choice"

As for feeling better??? I have been sick, sleep alot, not eating. I expect it to get worse before it gets better, as they say. Just having such an awareness of the imminant things that could be, is very weird. I donot feel better, I do feel different. I think it may be driving the cancer out of me. Without tests though, it is hard to know.

This is all learning for ALL of us, I do not feel as if I own this info, simple because it is being done ON ME. I do not find your questions inappropriate either. It helps me to know someone is asking..... HEY how's it going Elizabeth?

It would seem that here in Canada, the medical system @ least where cancer is conserned, is NOT that different from the American one. Be carefull!

All my best
Elizabeth

Lets fight together, help each other. I truely believe that we have to be our own health advocat.